A Place to Remember my journey

So I am new to this. Don't know where I'm heading, not even sure if i know where I have been. I have lived the past 30 years here on this earth, and this past year I have learned and discovered so much about myself, I feel like a new person. 

Not sure if it is because I gave birth to a beautiful baby girl. I have a 5 year old son, but there is something about having a daughter. It is like she is a mini me. I feel like it is my obligation to make sure she doesn't relive the same mistakes I did. She is so pure and innocent,  and I feel  totally responsible for not making the same mistake that my mother made with me, with her, with food. OK... I'm totally rambling here. 

I guess I started this blog because I want to remember where I am right now, in this moment.  I want to remember the next year, because I am about to embark on a amazing journey. I have made the courageous decision to undergo WLS. Yes, I said it. I'm not ready to put my weight out there, but lets just say I am pleasantly plump.

I started this journey 2 years ago, and decided not to go through with it. 6 months out from having my daughter, I know its time. I called the insurance company, its approved. I visited the doctors  got a surgery date. Now its real. 

I joined a Facebook support group and having been watching U-Tube videos of peoples transformations. I am so emotional about this process. I am so excited for my turn! 

Now all the pre op tests begin, round 2, lets get it!